kevin forgot

i put up a new demo song at http://www.myspace.com/kevinforgot

i am going to be selling my korg electribe sx-1 and buying an akai mpc. i'm not sure which one yet. i am getting way more into hip hop and getting a lot more serious about it. after i get the mpc and start getting a live show together with kenlove, we are definitely going to be hitting up the city.

first of all, i'm moving. 44th and locust, philadelphia, pa. i don't know when i'll have internet again, so call me.

new years eve. silk city.

my birthday party. jan 7th, 2006. 11pm. mad mex, philadelphia. if you read this, you're probably invited.

the specials will be as follows. everyone must drink at least one margarita.

10 to 12 p.m.
$6 Big Azz Margaritas

Half Off Food
11 p.m. to 1 a.m.
(*Except fajitas, tacos, chimis and desserts)

wish me a happy new year and a happy birthday, suckers! i will have lots of pictures with my new digital camera the next time i'm on.

if you read this, even if we dont speak often, you must post a memory of me. it can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened. then post this on your journal; see what people remember about you

i used to like it a lot. i've been doing it before i knew of any organized sites, back around 1999. sure, i've had my breaks, but this time i came back and i just don't feel the same. i used to find writing an enjoyable way to release stress and improve my writing skills. i used to like writing poetry as a creative outlet.

now i think the internet is kind of an enormous waste of my time.

if you feel that i'm a person worth keeping in touch with, i will be happy to talk to you on aim.

bad news: jim quit. for those of you who don't know, i work at george's music in springfield. i sell guitars. jim (up until tonight) sold guitars there as well. the management pretty much accused him of stealing $900, which he denied. they then said his attendance was too bad and they would have to let him go, but he quit anyway.

that doesn't sound so bad, does it? what you don't know is that our entire store consists of 6 employees. on any given day, at least 3 (sometimes 5) of those employees will be working. losing one of them REALLY fucks things up, especially since it's december.

to summarize, i'll see you guys in january. hopefully.

that was awesome.

a night to remember... if only i could

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last night after work i went out to the five spot in olde city with josh (my roommate) and ken (his friend) to see a live funk band that was supposed to be pretty good. well when we arrived, the band wasn't up for 45 minutes and we didn't feel like waiting. we went over to foggy goggles because they knew a shot girl who could hook us up. this is where it gets ugly. free drinks in a nice club. i'm glad i only brought $27, because now i don't have any money.

i ended up on the sidewalk of market street, drunk as fuck, throwing up. cops came up to me and were like, "are you alright?"

i was like "no... but my ride is coming to get me."

luckily, marcus came and picked me up, because i didn't have money and, in my drunken state, couldn't find an atm for a taxi to save my life (and i wasn't about to walk home from olde city). so here i am, still alive (although this hangover might feel better if i weren't).

since things took a surprising turn towards a more serious note, jen and i sat down and talked a bit last night. i've pretty much been in the dark about her feelings about me pretty much ever since i became curious as to what they were. for those of you who have no idea who jen is, here we go:


earlier this year, i was really bored and messaged a bunch of people on myspace. jen happened to be one of them. of the numerous people i began talking to from myspace, she was probably the only person i found interesting enough to continue talking to.

we kept talking online for a while and finally agreed one night to meet at the first unitarian church for the savath and savalas show (neither of us had heard them before, but i heard they were supposed to be incredible). i thought it was a great show and we had a good time talking about things and getting to know eachother face to face.

as time went on, we hung out more and more. we both love movies, music, late-night taco bell... we've been having fun together ever since. of course i got a crush on her and told her all about my feelings, but she left me with the impression that she just didn't (and wouldn't) feel the same way in return. that was ok with me. "just friends" is perfectly fine with me.

more recently, jen had the opportunity to move out of her apartment because her roommate was a mega-bitch, and asked if she could stay here until she was able to move into her new apartment (late-september). of course i said yes. for a friend i really care about, having an occupied couch every night is the least of my concerns.

i've actually really liked coming home and having someone (who isn't my fucking crazy roommates) that i can sit down and talk to, and maybe watch a movie or go to dinner. i've enjoyed the company and i know i'll miss her being around all the time when she moves.

anyway, last week i kind of got the idea that she might possibly be interested in something more than "just friends", so i asked her about it. finally we got to talking about how we really feel. it was definitely a huge relief afterwards to not feel completely in the dark about it. she actually wrote me a nearly-4-page note while she was in class, explaining to me what she was thinking. i thought that was really adorable.

it sounds like a big factor in all of this is that neither of us want to mess up our friendship. it is a great feeling to know that someone cares enough to not want to mess something up that is already awesome.

it also sounds like she's really scared of getting hurt, which i can completely understand. i think she is still very wary because she doesn't want to get cheated on ever again (which i can definitely relate to). cheating sucks bigtime.

right now, i have no idea where this is all headed. but wherever it's headed, i'm sure it will be in a good direction :)



in other news:

-pete is having a mega-party down the street on saturday night. i am definitely looking forward to it, but jen won't be there because she is going back to s-burg :( boo

-mikey is moving out of will's apartment nextdoor either sunday or monday. the 500 block of N 31 St is going to miss him a shitload :(

-jen and i are moving to will's apartment nextdoor either sunday or monday. the rent is more, but i will have my own room again, and i will have a lot more room to set up my studio. plus, i'll be able to stay near mike and marcus (and jen once she moves).

-i want a dog and i still really miss midnight :(

-my friends need to hang out with me on my days off (sunday and monday). what the hell is up with you guys making plans with me and then cancelling them last-minute? also, what's up with all you guys going to hooters and not even inviting me? thanks for nothing.

"I have never lived in times of a full-blown war. My generation has been deprived of war's natural selection. I am not a proponent of violence, but a religious war is exactly what the world needs. Not through the draft. By choice. Any fool willing to take arms against another religious zealot for differences of opinion should die. They both deserve their fate, and the world will be a better place. Let the fanatics provoke Middle Eastern intervention. Let the gun-toting cretins join the United States military so that I will live in a brighter nation in their absence. Let their folly reveal their ignorance in future history books. Let war wipe out the ignorant that choose to partake of its futile cause. Let their lives be spent on cheaper prices at the gas pump. Thin the herd."

last night something happened that i never imagined happening.

#1 at work today for the 2nd time this week. keyboard and sound department head.

guys at my work are silly!

today started out as an awesome day. i walked into work and there was a $350 slip in my bin. wooo, money for me! i got plenty of sleep, so i wasn't especially tired, and the drive to work was sunny and nice. i listened to sublime (40 oz) and it was great. i had a few other good sales during the day, one of them being an enforcer drum kit. the shitty thing about selling that one (right off the floor) is that i had to replace the display kit by assembling another.

now it just so happened that another customer returned an enforcer kit today as well. to my dismay, while attempting to RE-assemble it, i noticed that the customer who had returned it (an 18-year old "pastor" who couldn't remember his own name) had attempted to assemble it. 4 of the nuts on the bass drum were stripped out and stuck. WHAT A MOTHER FUCKER. the stupid fucks probably returned it because they were too fucking stupid to put it together without fucking it all up.

finally i got it all together.

in a side story, we have a new guy working there named drew. drew likes to do things his own way. even when he was in training and was supposed to be watching and learning (ghosting), he just did his own thing and DIDN'T LEARN JACK SHIT. he kind of pisses me off. don't get me wrong, he's an alright sales associate, but he could be a whole lot better if he gave half a shit about the way we do things.

well today, i helped drew out with a pa system sale. he pretty much didn't know anything about pa systems and didn't go through the appropriate steps to qualify the sale (figure out what the customer needs). i had to do the majority of the work, and ended up selling the guy a $700 system. i then got all the boxes for him out of the back and helped him pick out some cables. to no surprise, drew rang up the entire sale and didn't give me any of it. he didn't even say thank you for the help.

something about this kid just bugs the shit out of me.

after work, i went out with will and ate at a really good mexican restaurant with hot waitresses. i came back and shaved my head. yes, SHAVED MY HEAD. i have no hair now. i haven't had no hair since i was born, pretty much. i think it looks pretty funny. i think i'm going to grow a crappy beard too. that will be really funny. bald + beard = funny.



i'm bald!

amanda was supposed to call me to hang out on monday night, but she didn't. i asked her about it tonight and she apologized multiple times. no biggie. i like her, but not so much that i'm going to cry about it if she doesn't call when she says she will.

in unrelated news, i'm madly in love with jen. i asked her to marry me tonight and she said yes! we set the date for may 2005, and i can't wait! i never thought i would meet that special someone so soon, and it feels so right.

ok i lied, i don't love her. i only asked her to marry me because she's going to be having my baby in 8 months. i guess i can learn to love her..

last night i had a crazy dream. i haven't had any crazy dreams for a long, long time.

i went to a club with adrien, of all people. we danced and caught up on things. mammen was there hanging out too. i saw this girl in the club with green hair and i thought it was veronica coker, but when i walked up to her to say hi, it turned out to be a dude. for god knows what reason, adrien and i were going to take a train to arizona for $15 (not including soda).

in completely unrelated news, kerry and joe are moving about a block down the street, which is AWESOME. my new job at george's music in springfield is going pretty well, and i'm making quite a bit of money :-) but also working more than i ever have in my entire life. i like it though, it keeps me busy. mikey loyer, who just recently became my neighbor (and is a really cool dude), is planning on moving back home to arizona in about a month, which i'm kind of down about. jen is moving in with oj, matt, and i for a month or two during her transition to her new apartment. that should be pretty interesting and fun! i think that's all for now, p

last night i looked out my window into the beautiful philadelphia skyline only to notice a man sitting in a red suv across the street.




receiving oral sex.

freeds is the raddest australian girl in the history of anything australian... she beats steve irwin the crocodile hunter

to all of you who are now confused... don't ask.

stolen from pitifulanonymus

01. Trainspotting
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Rings
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead but not the new one...
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. The Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie (Spice World)
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Safety of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. Fierce Creatures
48. Dude, Where's My Car
49. Ladyhawke
50. Ghostbusters
51. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
52. Back to the Future
53. An Affair To Remember
54. Somewhere In Time
55. North By Northwest
56. Moulin Rouge
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets
58. The Wizard of Oz
59. Zoolander
60. A Walk to Remember
61. Chicago
62. Vanilla Sky
63. The Sweetest Thing
64. Don't Tell Mom the Babysitter's Dead
65. The Nightmare Before Christmas
66. Chasing Amy
67. Edward Scissorhands
68. Adventures of Priscilla: Queen of the Desert
69. Muriel's Wedding
70. Croupier
71. Blade Runner
72. Cruel Intentions
73. Ocean's Eleven
74. Magnolia
75. Fight Club
76. Beauty and The Beast
77. Much Ado About Nothing
78. Dirty Dancing
79. Gladiator
80. Ever After
81. Braveheart
82. What Lies Beneath
83. Regarding Henry
84. The Dark Crystal
85. Star Wars: A New Hope
86. The Birds
87. Beaches
88. Cujo
89. Maid In Manhattan
90. Labyrinth
91. Thoroughly Modern Millie
92. His Girl Friday
93. Chocolat
94. Independence Day
95. Singing in the Rain
96. Big Fish
97. The Thomas Crown Affair
98. The Matrix
99. Stargate
100. A Hard Day's Night
101. About A Boy
102. Jurassic Park
103. Life of Brian
104. Dune ... own Children of Dune as well...
105. Help!
106. Grease
107. Newsies
108. Gone With The Wind
109. School of Rock
110. TOMMY
111. Yellow Submarine
112. From Hell
113. Benny & Joon
114. Amelie
115. Bridget Jones' Diary
116. Holy Grail
117. Heavenly Creatures
118. All About Eve
119. The Outsiders
120. Airplane!
121. The Sorcerer
122. The Crying Game
123. Hedwig and the Angry Inch
124. Slap Her, She's French
125. Amadeus
126. Tommy Boy
127. Aladdin
128. How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
129. gift (not the gift. with perry farell)
130. party monster
131. down with love

132. death to smoochy
133. american history x
134. adaptation

new copeland demo song!

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i can't fucking wait for a new cd from these dudes. pretty much everything i've heard from them makes me want to be in love.

michael moore.

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how many people in today's world have the power to make people angry simply with the drop of their name? bush, bill gates maybe? there probably aren't very many. the power to make people angry means the power to make people blind, which i don't think mr. moore's intentions were.

let's get this straight: i am already aware that much of bowling for columbine was taken out of context and twisted around to lead people to believe unreality. the majority of people i know that have seen the movie are angered by this fact. do you honestly think michael moore didn't think that everyone would find out that his "documentary" was, in fact, a "mockumentary"? i was not angered by the deception that he managed to pull off on the entire nation (including the oscar judges). in fact, i appreciated the movie even more. i know you're probably sitting there thinking, "what the fuck is this guy smoking?" let me explain.

it's important for us, as U.S. citizens, to think for ourselves. often times, we forget to do this. when we watch the news, when we see events that anger us, we tend to stop thinking and we begin to form opinions that have no actual base. we don't even question the reality of what we are fed, we just take it for truth. when i found out that moore duped me with "bowling for columbine", it made me think. i wondered, how much of today's media can i really believe? how much of reality do i actually know at any given moment? these are two very good, unanswerable questions.

the real point of this entire entry is this: most people do not think for themselves nearly enough. they hear things on the news, believe every word of it, and immediately begin to form opinions. i actively try not to form (or at least talk about) a solid opinion about sensitive (angering) subjects because i am able to admit to myself that i do not know enough regarding the reality of current events. if i'm unable to form an educated opinion... i simply don't. with educated opinions, our nation would be able to make educated decisions, such as voting. the way i see it now, most of us are unable to make educated decisions such as voting because we don't know what the fuck is happening. beheading? fake videos? saddam? bin laden? oil companies?

i read cnn.com daily. i keep an open mind. i try to keep up to date about what is happening in our world. i think. and i think you should do the same.

stop trying so hard to form an opinion simply for the sake of arguing. if you honestly don't know what happened regarding an event (example: 9/11, beheading videos), don't go yelling to everyone about how you want to kill the arabs and how you think the war is justified. don't you see? you're just getting angry and becoming blinded from the reality: you don't know what the fuck is going on. none of us do.

and stop talking shit on a man who simply wants us to think, even if you disagree with his messages.

friday night i went to the civic tour with kristy. we missed head automatica, which i'm a little pissed about. the get up kids were quite disappointing. thrice kicked major ass and played a few new endings and different mixes of a few songs. dashboard confessional, which i'm not a huge fan of, came on next. they opened with the song, "best deceptions". with blissful ignorance, kristy sang along. as much as i hate it when people (including myself) post lyrics, here they are.

I heard about your trip
I heard about your souveniors
I heard about the cool breeze and the cool nights
And the cool guys that you spent them with
I guess I should have heard of them from you
I guess I should have heard of them from you

Well don't you see, don't you see
That the charade is over
And all the "best deceptions" and the
"Clever cover story" awards go to you

So kiss me hard
'Cause this will be the last time that I let you
You will be back someday
And this awkward kiss that tells of other people's lips
Will be of service to keeping you away

I heard about your regrets
I heard that you were feeling sorry
I heard from someone that you wish you could
Set things right between us
Well, I guess I should have heard of that from you
I guess I should have heard of that from you

Well don't you see, don't you see
That the charade is over
And all the "best deceptions" and the
"Clever cover story" awards go to you

So kiss me hard
'Cause this will be the last time that I let you
You will be back someday
And this awkward kiss that screams of other people's lips
Will be of service to keeping you away
To keeping you away

I'm waiting for blood to flow to my fingers
I'll be alright when my hands get warm
Ignoring the phone--I'd rather say nothing
I'd rather you never heard my voice
You're calling too late, too late to be gracious
You do not warrant long goodbyes
You're calling too late
You're calling too late
You're calling too late





...and it still makes me upset.